Restless for change

I've been wondering lately...As much as I want a change, an adventure, I stay where I am, not moving toward the change I would like to see happen.I stay, yet my spirit continues in this restless state as I vascilitate between what I know, which is safe, and what could be. To make a change would require some effort, an effort I believe would be worth the risk. A few months ago, Ed spoke about not making a big decision when one is in a state of despondency. It has been a year full of despondency. Full of dissappoinment and tough lessons learned. I have hesitated to make a big change, to pursue something different, due to the fact that I know life in general has been challanging. Here I am, months and months later, and still disatisfied. Still restless. Still longing for something different. I have been praying, pondering, dreaming about this. Just when I begin to talk myself into staying and not pursuing change, I begin to feel an overwhelming sense that it is time to move on.
Restless heart, where will you go, when will take the chance you long for?